Plain Jane's multiple rants

educated (RANDOM)

2009-10-18T00:20:00.004+08:00

"the absolute way of getting out of the extreme emo-ness,
is to do the exact opposite of it"

Well I guess my title would have explained it all.
Wow wow wow.
It have been weeks since I return to blog.
Just plain lazy to record my life down.
Plus all that emo-ness I felt weeks before,
Nahhh,
No point noting that down.
:)

Just to sum it all up,
This week have been crazy hectic.
New semester,
New Class,
New faces,
Gakuensai.
Imagine the mental pressure.
Killer.

Of course, there are emo times too.
So bad till a point I felt like hurting myself again.
Just like last time.
Baka to the max right.
People stop me when I start to do things insane,
I can't control myself sometimes. =/

But then again,
There are also times that are just plain fun.
I cherish them so dearly.
I want to live life like that all the time.
(Y)

Ok, this was meant to be a short post.
So I guess this is where I will stop.
Too darn lazy to continue anyway.
Want me to post pictures?
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D
BRIBE ME!
LOLLOLLOL
just kidding. :)

oyasumi. xD

P.S. I am going to show you that you are not affecting me anymore.

2009-10-01T13:44:00.002+08:00

"Nothing more to say"

I have stared at this blank post for almost 10 mins
Before starting on the first sentence.
I have brought things upon myself,
There is absolutely nobody to blame.
The same mistake again,
Why can't I just learn from it.
Why must I repeat the mistake that shattered my heart to a million pieces before.

You deserve it Brenda.
You deserve every single gist of it.
You don't know how to express your real thoughts and feelings.
Darn your bloody ego and fear.
But there is no turning back from here.
You would just have to face it.
Forget about all these.
Focus on things you would need to focus on.
There is still JCG to worry about.
There is still School to worry about.
There is still Family to worry about.
There is still your Health to worry about.
Enough of breaking your heart.
Seal it.
Confine it.

Cause there is absolutely no time for this.

why why WHYYYYYY!?!?

2009-09-25T22:05:00.007+08:00

"Our Differences really do show"

Need I say more?
My legs looks like pigs trotters now.
How nice. =.=

And I wasn't even able to go for work today too.
Cause the pain was so bad I could hardly walk.
So I decided to go to the doctors hoping he can cure me before tomorrow.
and he gave me this!
I CAN'T EVEN FIT INTO MY WORKING SHOES NOW!!
so how am I suppose to work tomorrow.
HELL NOICE. Zz

I guess this is really a DARN UNLUCKY year for me.

1. The number of time I got sick is so frequently
that the doctor already predicted when I will come again.

2. The number of times I sat on a bus and it BROKE DOWN
is the number of fingers I have on my hand.

3. The number of times I met a really SLOW driver or a TRAFFIC JAM
is more than the number of fingers of my hands and legs AND my grandma's too.
(it doesn't even matter how early I wake up.
I have even tried leaving house an entire hour early!)

4. The number of times I got myself into rubbish shit is almost infinite.

ARGH. #!*&#!$^@$!#

I swear RP and the Hotel is SOOOOOO going to blacklist me.
"THE GIRL THAT IS ALWAYS SICK"
and that pretty much sucks.
ARGH I HATE MY SICKLY LIFE.
I HATE BAD LUCK.
I HATE BEING LABELED AS SOMETHING NEGATIVE.
&!^#%*!^@&(@$*&#!$

AH FORGET IT.
That's life I guess.
What's the point of grumbling about it.
It is not going to get any better.
BUT IT IS JUST SO FRUSTRATING.
*cries a lake*

That's it,
I am going to drown myself in emo shit
and an acute pain in my heel the entire night today.
AND OH YEAH,
My dragonica patch just wouldn't work after my 47584729083 times I tried it.
ARGH, GOD DAMN IT.
BYE PEOPLE.

*#&!$^(#*!*()@*$)(8

RANDOM:

Things people will do for love.
Vandalism on a bus stop bench.
Like WHUTT.
LOL

P.S. life pretty much sucks now.

HOHOHO. tell me somthing I don't know

2009-09-21T17:20:00.005+08:00

"Everything is not what it seems
When you can get all you wanted in your wildest dreams
You might run into trouble if you go to extremes
Because everything is not what it seems "

I am acutely hungry now.
Rojak, Prawn noodle, Sushi, Roti Prata, Pigs organ soup,
Ice cendol, Fried Ice cream, Beef steak, Soybean curd,
Smelly toufu, Green veges, Crab, Prawns, Calms, Scallops,
Sotong, Bamboo shoots, Lemon Chicken, Yong tau Foo

OMG. I AM SO HUNGRYYY
roar~

And guess what?
My PP is not done yet.
Apparantly, I am still stuck at my miserable 15% of it.
And my Ritz Calton Internship starts this thurs.
That leaves me almost impossible days left to finish my PP.
OMG
WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO.
good job good job *clap clap* D;
imitates XY

Sleepy.
I can't help but feel sleepy about life all the time now.
Don't ask me why.
I don't know.
Just feels sleepy all the time.
Like I could sleep my life away.
Sleeping Beauty!

***
I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream,
I know you the gleam in your eyes are so familliar a gleam,
Yes, I know its true that visions are seldom all they seem,
but if i know you, i know what you'll do...
You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream.
***

random much B. ?
LOL

I want to go sentosa like soon, REAL SOON.
With my JCG family definitely!
Homg, only when I am with them I will so bliss.
SO FUNNY PEOPLE.
xD

Ok, I am going to do a rapid ending.
My mind have been pretty messy lazy to post anything decent
So I am not going to say more
Before you all get blown away my magnificent abrupt change of topics.

Oh btw,

I love my bro and cousin to bits.
and domo too of course.
:D

toodles~ :)

P.S. You are bring me on a roller coaster ride aren't you?

NO TITLE

2009-09-16T22:03:00.004+08:00

"Something so right has no chance to live
So let's us forget about chances,
its one night I will give"

PP.
If you are human,
I will beg you to leave.
CAUSE YOU ARE GOD DAMN IRRITATING.

Resolution for the following days:
1. PP
2. JCG language lessons and activites
3. Gakuensai preparations
4. Ritz Calton internship
5. PP

SEE
PP takes up two slots in my resolutions.
Omg, why do you even exist. T.T
Sigh,
I guess it is good for us. =/

Ok, I have stopped doing my PP already
So I am bored off my socks.
No one is talking to me on msn.
Facebook suddenly turns boring.
No new posts on sgcafe too.
one word,
B.O.R.I.N.G

SoOoOoOoOoOo
should I sleep early tonight?
I am in an awful mood tonight.
All cause of that someone.
Tsk.
So much to hate and so much to love.
=/

OH SHOOT.
I forget that we have Japanese lessons tomorrow.
B HAS TO WAKE UP EARLY AGAIN. T^T
And I totally forgot to practice whatever we learned in previous lessons. D;

Hajimemashite
Watashi wa Repaburikku Polytekunikku no gakusee desu.
Namae wa B desu.
Senmon wa Hosupitarityii Gaku desu.
Shingapooru-jin desu. Doozo yoroshiku onegai shimasu.

Minna san!
Kochirawa ______ san desu!

Ogenki desuka?
Hai, okagesamade, genki desu _____ san wa?

ichi, ni, san, shi, go,
roku, shiji, haji, kyu, juu

ichi, ni, san, yon, go,
roku, nana, haji, kyu, juu

I hope I can still remember tomorrow. ><
I am actually not looking forward to go tomorrow.
No idea why. =/

Haiya,
Don't care la.

Advice from Facebook application:
" Worry less, limit stress. "

Shall live by it. :)

P.S. argh, why are you like this? why why WHY??

HOHOHO. guess who?

2009-09-11T14:49:00.004+08:00

I.AM.BACK

miss me? xD

OK, so I am back to my blogger like I don't how many donkey times of changing blogging platforms.
I guess blogger is still the ultimate blogging platform.
No way you can beat it.
May you try inside out, outside in, left-side right, right-side left. upside down, downside out.
P.E.R.F.E.C.T

Well, I still love my tumblr no doubt.
Cause I am just so unoriginal like that.
Reblogging is ♥♥♥.
But you know, it starts to get you a little lazy.
OK, I admit, not a little but ALOT lazier. =.=
Just looking through my tumblr page and you will realize,
only like 20% of all the posts are like written by yours truly.
Boring maxi-mums!
So I guess I shall stop my lazy bug from destroying all
what that is left from my unglamorous amount of creative juices.

BUT.
yes, there is always a big but in everything.

I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START.
OK, maybe I shall start with what have I been lingering recently.
My life have been revolving very much on JCG nowadays.
They are family to me.
I adore them so much I think I can start calling my members "children" already.
D;
NO NO NO.
I don't want to age like 30 years instantly.
"Siblings".
Yes, that should be the perfect term. :D

And it is only these few days I realized that the how scheming society is.
Holy mama crap to Jupiter.
totally random ^^ll
These people are scary like monsters from prey and predator.
Maybe even scarier.
At least when you face a real monster,
they will just eat you and end your fear like instantly.
Facing people like these?
WOAH.
Infinite intense fear I tell you.
You would have to watch your back EVERY SINGLE SECOND.
No, haiya-I-slack-for-a-moment-no-biggie deal.
T^T

BUT BUT BUT
see I told you there are buts in everything. xP

I DON'T GET THE FEELING OF FEAR WHEN I AM WITH MY JCG FAMILY!

Waaa. this is seriously sounding like some gratitude post for JCG.
I can't express the love I have for you all man.
Till Nano bits I swear.
Maybe more than that if Nano bits are not the smallest.
do you guys love me too?
HEE HEE.

Alright, I think I am going to stop here.
Absolute random urge for me to come back here.
After I have lost all my readers. LOL

Nevertheless,
It feels great to be back.
feels like home.

Tadaima~
♥♥♥♥♥

P.S. my tumblr page will still exist. So don't worry to those who are still reading it.
I would just post proper posts here. :)

2009-07-25T23:05:00.002+08:00

OK OK OK!

I am back to blog!
But only a few sentences.
No, I swear I am not trying to spike my readers.
It is just that I found a much better blogging platform to blog at.

WWW.MYJUDGEMENTALLIFE.TUMBLR.COM

If you all REALLLLLY misses me that much and wants to stalk me further.
omg i am SO bhb.
Please proceed to my tumlr and get all the little gist of my life down there.

I swear it is MUCH more interesting to read.
toodles~ ^^

goodbye blogger hello tumblr!

2009-07-02T16:30:00.005+08:00

"funny how the same species breeds different characters"

HOWDE HOMIES!
how's life? (:

mine have been pretty bored.
am on LOA till 5 of July.
which leaves me approximately 3 to 4 days more before i can go back to school.
):):

not that i mind being away from school.
i just mind mind being away from civilization.
my computer is my only source of communication besides my phone.
how sad is that man!
ultra sad. D;

and i don't even want to start on what happened that day i went to seek the doctors.
omg. H.E.L.L
the school management was no help either.
making my life miserable. D;

well forget it,
i don't want to go brood over it. =/

on a side note,
i am totally addicted to tumblr again!
and successfully captured other future tumblrs into the never ending fun of reblogging!
HOHOHO
tumblr should pay me man. xP

SoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
i wouldn't be blogging much here.
instead, if some ultimate stalker of mine wants to know my every move,
you can either follow my twitter,
which isn't of much use cause i don't normally use it. =/
or visit my tumblr website!

http://myjudgementallife.tumblr.com/

see you peepos there! xD

P.A.I.N

2009-06-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

"Too good to be true~"
haha, brenda you are so smart.
=)

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my hips are really killing me.

and oh yeah,
i forgot to add.

Guys are hopeless.

=)

just happened to pass by..

2009-06-23T19:06:00.005+08:00

"It feels like shit, smells like shit, looks like shit"
oh! that's you.
:O

HAHA.
no offence for my title.
something random i poured out from my ambiguous head.
D;

ROTTING AT HOME DAY 2!

I am suppose to be doing my worksheet for business law and Project management.
but i got distracted.
argh,
the freedom of having your Internet access.
you just can't get anything done!
screw youtube.
i love you and hate you at the same time.
can you just appear at the appropriate time,
and hide yourself when i am suppose to be doing homework?

omg.
i am going bonkers from all that containment.
I WANT TO GET OUT OF MY ROOM!
i am really getting better ready.
paranoid doctors are SCARYYYYYYY
!@#$%^&*()_+

ok,
i better get back to my work or else i am never going to finish it.
D;

random: I am thinking of beef jerky and the toilet bowl now. D:

OK DON'T JUDGE ME.

taken AGESSSSS ago. when things were very much more peaceful.

buaizxxzzzxxzxzxzxzxzxx

p.s. great work guys. you all kept your promise. thanks a lot! :D

ARGH TO THE MAX

2009-06-22T19:49:00.007+08:00

"you are really not worth my attention anymore"
so much for thinking that you are different.
you are no different from other superficial guys.

Sick.
MC for 3 days.
need to do PBL lessons at home.
crap.

can't believe i can be so suay as to have flu symptoms at a time like this
complicates so much stuff.
doctor's paranoid.
school's paranoid.
mum's paranoid.

COME ON LA.
IT IS JUST A SMALL FLU.
I AM RECOVERING READY.

okay, i admit i was complaining about it before.
that is because i have UT today and i am afraid i would miss it
but still did after that cause i was told not to come to school.
double crap.
-.-

sucks to have such low immune system.
any major killer diseases arises,
we are the ones that will die first.
HOW AWESOME
*note the sarcasm*

well, at least it shows me one thing,
i came to finally experience the attitude Singaporeans are popularly labelled for.
make way for the all so INfamous KIASUs AND KIASIs!

GOSH.
you should have seen the looks of those aunties when they saw me wearing a mask.
individuals will take a look at me and detour with their mouth covered.
clusters will also do the same thing.
only constantly finding opportunities to gossip,
while plastering their hands tightly on their mouth.

way to go aunties!
you all have reached the highest level of kiasium (own word. made it up myself)!
*claps claps*
-.-

now,
let's not talk about aunties and divert our attentions to taxi drivers.
just because i was wearing a mask,
they refused to stop.
oh how Honourable.
D;

ALAMAK.
I AM WEARING A MASK LA.
SO SCARED FOR WHAT.
-.-

i would really start worrying if my passenger ISN'T wearing a mask
and cough like they coughed before in my taxi.
at least i had the courtesy to PROTECT you in most possible way by wearing a mask.

i just don't get what is up with Singaporeans and mask.
it is a norm in countries like Japan where patients wear mask on the streets.
why can't it be accepted in Singapore?
wearing a mask is really no comfort i can guarantee that.
and we patients are wearing them to PROTECT others from getting it.
and this is what we get in return?
strange looks and rejection on transport service?

may be it is still better to own your own car.
at least you wouldn't be treated like a social reject on the roads when you are ill.
SHEESH.

p.s. friendship is not a one sided matter. it takes two hands to clap.
what's the point if i were to work so hard but having you take advantage of me? =/

OVERLOADDD~

2009-06-17T22:13:00.004+08:00

"Screwed like never been screwed before"
omg. someone just push me into the black hole of never return
D;

random:

cute pumps i got from cotton on.
i just wanted to show them off.
xD

oh, you all GOT to see this.
some of you should already recieve my spams on this weblink
but i don't care,
i am posting it again.
cause it is GOD.DAMN.ADORABLE
you can have my words for it.
XD

http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/

ICKLE AND LARDEE
and an non-exsistence tooth called lickle created by syaz. LOL
if only the were real.
i will kidnap them and own them all to myself.
WAHAHAHAHA.
*smacks self*
D;

anyways,
when i was reading my mail today,
i saw this email.

click to enlarge

OMG OMG OMG.
MTV~
it is like a dream come true!
but aww, i guess i wouldn't make it.
there is no creative juices lurking anywhere in this blog.
ah well, =/

but still,
MTV!!!
this is what happens when 2 kukus go gaga over MTV.

*****

msbk. prisoner of your dreams says:
JIA YOUUU
V^^ brenda rock symbol power!~
do you know what's the wonderful thing abt MTV?

BRENDA says:
what??
haha
MTVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV~

msbk. prisoner of your dreams says:
the wonderful thing abt MTV is that MTV is a wonderful thing.

BRENDA says:
nope
it is way beyong wonderful
i fits into the category of AWESOMENESS
can change even a brooker into a music saint
LOLLOL

msbk. prisoner of your dreams says:
okok so sub the word wonderful with awesome in the phrase hmph
LOL

BRENDA says:
LOLLOL
of course!
mtv rocks ppl's lives like earthquakes rocks earth
ok, maybe that isnt the best Description

msbk. prisoner of your dreams says:
fits1

BRENDA says:
-.-

*****

HOHOHO
the power of MTV~
sheesh,
MTV fanatic overload.
xD

anyways,
i am going to stop here.
i apologise for the lack of photos.
just got even lazier since school started.

TAKES OFF TO SPACE AND BEYOND~
nights. :)

HOMIEEEEZZZZ

2009-06-14T22:25:00.012+08:00

"Wisdom Through The Years"

Like i said before,
i have nothing against people who blog about their life.
i do too.
well, in fact,
i am going to do the exact thing now.
just brief ones,
with a few pictures to sum up the whole day.
i am STILL a lazy person afterall.
=/

11 June

STB Interview
Went Kbox with Vanessa, Chin yee and Sze zhen to Kbox after that.

and omg you all have to see this.
i can't rotate the video so bear with me.
SORRY SZE ZHEN BUT YOU ARE TOO ENTERTAINING I JUST HAVE TO SHARE WITH EVERYONE!
LOLLOL

OMG. i almost died laughing when he was singing this song man.
D; LOLLLOL

12 June

OMG I JUST SIMPLY LOVE THIS DAY!!
cause it was the i-got-my-itouch-day!
need to commemorate need to commemorate. LOL
it fair was not as big and packed as i expected.
sony like pok gai ready.
all squeezed into one small perimeter
no more all-so-glamourous-whole-floor deal.
=/

ITOUCH ITOUCH

omg, i love this magnificant invention to hell.
i used to say iphone sucks.
i take back my words.
IT GOD DAMN ROCKS MY SOCKS.
LOL!

after the it fair we went starbucks to rest
and that's when i FINALLY got a nice candid picture of my bro.
i always fail to take pics of him cause my reflexis were too slow.
D;

there see,

ok la,
not all perfect
but the best candid pic i took so far.
=/

13 June

STREETFEST.
i am not going to blog about it man.
too overrated.
everyone is blogging about it.
so i wouldn't
>.<

14 June

TODAY.
FAMILY DAY!
need i say more?
:D

alright,
tomorrow is the dreadful day i need to go back to school.
SUCKS MAN.
i was just enjoying my holiday.
:(

but at least i have my itouch to accompany me!
WAHAHAHAHAHA.

abrupt ending cause i got lazy again.
TAKES OFF WITH A ROFLCOPTER I COOPED FROM MY BRO AND FLIES AWAY.
omg, i got hooked onto my bro's randomness.
xP

*****

oh before i forget,
i shall reply my tags here.
too many to reply due to my laziness.
argh
D;

FYQ
thanks man.
yeap, been such a long time since w35e got together.
gathering soon?
XD

yy
LOL.
purposely one ma.
must have suspense.
xP

Aiikiki. :3
yeah yeah!
i saw you too!
you were in lolita.
nice nice.
XD

KiSa
when i am free ba.
i got it in my computer le.
see when free send you.

OzoRA
haha.
try to.
but nowadays like nothing much to talk about leh.
talk about H1N1 mehh.
LOL

Shinn
haha.
yeap,
it is a very cold place man.
don't know does internet work there or not man.
too cold frozed all the wires.
LOL

Eda
LOL.
some random word my brother invented.
COOL RIGHT!
xP

CHEESEBURGARZZZZ

2009-06-14T14:12:00.004+08:00

"Praise Lord For The Creation Of Family"
the only people who would welcome you with open arms,
even if all others in the world hates you.

gosh,
i know i should be updating.
but i am just too lazy!!

someone please slap me in the face with a wet tuna.
that is sure to wake me up.
loads of things to tell,
loads of pictures to share.
and i should stop using the word loads and instead use "lots" cause my mum doesn't like it.
-.-

well,
i think you are very right syaz.
i really should escape from the world someday.
give myself some freedom to do stuff that i really want to do.
with no restriction.
anticipating till that day comes.
courage is THEZ word.

crappy post.
doesn't say much at all.
i am just updating for the sake of updating.
=/

i sometimes wonder,
isn't blogging suppose to help us DE STRESS not PRESSURE us more?
hmmmmm.
argh, i just think that blogging isn't much fun anymore.
you are practically telling your ENTIRE life to anonymous people online.
even some nonomomo kajshkasdjas old ticko from all the way from Alaska can read about your every move.
wouldn't that be very scary?
well, if they have an Internet connection there of course.
=/

nevertheless,
i am not criticizing bloggers that blog about their life.
i do so too.
it just that my over intensive imagination gets into me every time.
explains my over reactive mood swings.

and for the last time,
NO I AM NOT EMO.
i just appear emo on my blog cause this is the only platform i can truly express my emotions.
i appreciate concerns.
i am grateful for those.
but i don't think there is a need for labelling me as an emo shit.
ahhhh, but if you really want to,
there is no choice too.
hmmmm. *shrugs*

alright,
i should stop.
before my brother finishes my dessert downstairs.
TAKES OFF WITH MY BROTHER'S ROFLCOPTER TO GET MY DESSERT BACK.
inside joke, don't bother figuring out what that means.
HAHAHA

p.s. and oh syaz, i don't speak like an ah lian if i want to. i hope you know that. LOL HOMIEZZZ

2009-06-10T22:59:00.004+08:00

I AM GOING TO BLOG

I AM GOING TO BLOG

I AM GOING TO BLOG.

WAIT FOR IT! :D

tomorrow. HAHA. xD

i hate coming up with titles cause i suck at it

2009-06-07T23:14:00.006+08:00

"that familar feeling is back"
and i don't like it a bit.

absolute must watch i must say.
a little insulting to these famous people
but endless fun nevertheless.
way to go. :D

sheesh,
i am like losing my social life man.
have been keeping myself at home.
lazing away as the clock ticks precious life away.
ah well. =/

and i don't think i am only losing my social life.
i am also losing my ability to blog properly.
there is always instances that i would just pause and realize
"hey, i got nothing else to write about."
and procrasted hours away before i either finally post it,
or just closed the tab.
pathetic.

after using tumblr,
i realize how an ameatur i am.
scanned myself properly and discovered that,
i really don't have anything special or outstanding man.
i don't do great photography,
i embaress myself sometimes with my language usasge.
there is like 91287301397523855824 faults i find in myself.
shucks, the urge of drowning myself in self pity is starting.
crap.

well aside from that,
i think i am just lacking something very important in life.
more may not not one thing but many.
well i would just have to say,
patience is the key.
i will feel genuienely happy one day.

wish me luck. =)

p.s. a broken promise ain't good. but how many of us can actually keep one?

sweetness prevails

2009-06-06T21:22:00.004+08:00

"there is no need to speak, it tells it all"

=)

random to the max

2009-06-05T23:24:00.003+08:00

"I am confident but I still have my moments. Baby, that's just me"

super shagged now.
like SUPER DOPERLY shagged.
=/

totally random,
congrats!!
you two look totally sweet together.
TEE HEE HEE. XD

I want to eat like chocolate ice cream now.
like a whole tub.

I am watching a movie that is still in the midst of streaming.
super slow.
irritates me

I want to sleep.
I want my bed.
I don't want to feel afraid.

omg,
my blog post sound a little like eda man.
random to the max.
D;

ok that happens when i am REALLY tired.

nights

i am bored ok?

2009-06-04T22:14:00.005+08:00

"Once I ran to you , Now I run from you"

omg. i don't believe i am doing this.
i swear i am like going to lose like 50% of my readers.
please get a grip people.
here goes,

raw picture of how i look like at home in front of my mac.
i actually think that i kind of look like a guy.
i mean some angles.
ok, quit giving me the looks.
i am perfectly ~~normal~~ and not out of my mind.
haha. argh

i have no idea but i got so addicted to the songs from the 60s recently
makes elvis look handsome all over again.
awwwwwwwesome. xD

short post,
please don't throw eggs at me.
i just can't seem to post anything longer than a page of my nursery storybook.
my life just isn't exciting enough.
whooopedo~ FML.

p.s. just a moment there, i suddenly forgot how to even spell eggs. great.

oh myy. look at my dinner

2009-06-03T22:31:00.009+08:00

"do you know how much it irritates me? ARGH"

random time.
I am going to post up a few pictures of my dinner tonight,

i personally like this the most.
i don't know why. maybe cause the oil on it looks soooo delicious.
ok, cut staring at me.
i couldn't care less about calories.
^^ll

don't ask me why i so bo liao.
cause i just had the sudden urge to pick up my camera and use it all over again.
applaud me?
or not. XD

alright, that's all tonight.
stay tune for "CRAPS FOR THE MIND" hosted by brenda koo.
till then, good night.

ok, lame.

Heaven and Earth. I am somewhere in the middle..

don't tell me you can't see the title? it is just here!

2009-06-03T10:10:00.002+08:00

"I fell flat on my face too many times
Left with nothing but some cheap perfume
Now you cry, now you need me
Now that perfume's not cheap"

hmmmmm,
i just realized i haven't been taking pictures for a very long time.
Ever since i removed my extensions.
=/

anyways,
i am BORED BORED BORED at home!
i want to watch anime.
i want to watch movie.
anyone recommend me?
argh.

i am still convincing my mum for me to highlight my hair.
but i am still not sure whether it will turn out good.
scary. =S

this is just a very short post cause i am overly bored.
will post more soon.
when i tear myself off my tumblr addiction.
it's awesome trust me!

so let's
TUMBLR~
XD

on a side note and totally unnecessary to be here on my blog,
it should be at the JCG blog
a gentle reminder to all,
Meeting on Friday would be and the W1 forum, 2.30pm
remember to bring your brains!
we would need to use it a lot.

HAHA.
i am just being lame.
see ya! =)

omg, the title that should be here isn't here!

2009-06-01T11:28:00.009+08:00

"Sometimes we just can't expect much out of life"
when reality kicks in
herion wouldn't even help

http://archie-blogs.archiecomics.com/archie_news/2009/05/this-august-prepare-yourself-for.html

god damn you archie.
i am so disappointed in you.
are you blind or what man?
choosing veronica over betty??
it is like choosing prison over resort.
nut case.

ok alright, I've always been rooting for betty.
keep my little ~~secret~~ safe ok!
sigh, i guess that is reality,
guys go for gorgeous, fashionable, ~~RICH~~ chicks
rather than goody-two-shoes girl next doors.
well that that explains much. =/

and i know this is super old news..

http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/

OH PUH-LEASE.
HOW CAN THIS

BE A TRANNY!?!?
omg. my sex goddess. :(
it will totally kill my self estem if she is one.
how can a guy so darn good compared to so many us girls?
hail almighty plastic surgoens
medical advancement does do wonders. :O

anyways, i just realize an awesome blogging platform.
http://www.tumblr.com/
Discovered this when i was visting one of my old friend's blog
thanks shirlyn. =)

AWESOME I TELL YOU.
it works something like twitter but something more!
something else to consider eh. *eyebrows*

here's mine,
http://myjudmentallife.tumblr.com/
see you there!

p.s. i am starting to feel that intelligence is an insult to my ego

FMLAOA

2009-05-31T21:40:00.004+08:00

"when I taste the sweet, I realize the bitterness within"
i shouldn't have let my guard down.
how much more fake can you get.

just got back from camp.
shagged to the max.
not going to say more about things.
didn't really enjoy it.

indeed through a camp you see many things
what much more is left to say?
I realized so many things in this one and half days.
watch where you place your trust
or risk being eaten. =/

things ain't always what they seem to be.
people might never mean what they are.
what to do?
that's life.

headaches headaches headaches.
when are you going to leave me alone.
you driving me nuts i tell you.
you giving people who hates me a licence to my venerability.

p.s. what's the use trying to tell me you love me when you actually aren't. don't you feel tired pretending?

FMLFTW

2009-05-25T22:56:00.008+08:00

"i no longer know, what my heart wants."
irritating,
but true

FCUKING HEADACHE
HAUNTS ME EVERY NIGHT.
THEY SHOULDN'T EXIST IN THIS WORLD AT ALL.

pills ain't helping any longer.
i have misused them too much already.
awwww.
i have to live with it now.
=/

UTs are the biggest bumpers in my whole entire RP life.
everyone hates it.
who doesn't?
argh but what can we do about it?
ZzZ

ah away from it,
i am kind of falling in love with them,

HEY MONDAY

and her especially *cough cough*,

tell me.
IS SHE CUTE OR WHAT!?
i totally fell in love with her voice and hair.

ok ignore me,
i fall in love with random celebrities all the time.
typical =/

but stillllllllllllll
SHE IS SO CUTE!
OMG OMG OMG.
ok you all can stop staring.
i am not gay.
D:

and that totally reminds me,
i have not done my RJ yet.
zomfgwaispfml.
decode it if you can. =)

ok i am off.

P.S. i am starting to love abbreviations. thanks ah syaz. XP

helpless

2009-05-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

"I have never had this feeling of lost for a long time"
everything is solved.
why do i still feel that something is missing..

i keep forcing myself to believe that i am healthy.
ignoring all the obvious signs of deterioration
finally,
finally,
my body proved me otherwise.

i don't know how much longer i can make myself appear healthy to you all.
but definitely you all can see the difference.
i know i look horrid these days.
sorry.
i can't help it.

sigh.
the varsity of life.
once something is over,
other things start erupting.
how marvellous.

sucks to feel so helpless with your body.
i keep popping pills at nights.
keep bearing the pain.
so lethargic.
so tired

nothing much more to say.
not something i can choose.
just don't sunk your body conditions to mine
it is not good at all
take it from someone who knows..

P.S. enough brenda. time to make up your mind.

Sweet conviction

2009-05-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

"Everybody's Fool"
what's left to say
when you guys don't even have that trust for me

It just feels so good to be away from everything.
If I am ignoring all that negative comments that is.
But i am grateful.
Grateful for being blessed with awesome classmates.
you all never fail to make me smile. =)

Sze zhen, although i am always teasing you and making fun of you,
thanks for always being there for me,
listening out for me. :)

Sophie, you are the sweetest girl i have ever met.
so nice and funny at times.
caring and never dull.
thanks for all the concern and great times. :)

Vanessa, you are sooooo caring.
so nice to talk with too.
feels just like an elder sister. :)

Pris, omg, awesome cuteness oozing out naturally.
feels like i can go out shopping with you without being judged.
because of you, it triggered my long lost girly instinct within me.
you are fantastic adorable. :)

Liang yu, you have the best facial expressions man!
sooo fun being around you.
makes me smile all the time. :)

and the many others in class,
i can't thank enough to be placed in this class.
So many fun loving people,
So many people that actually care.
thank you all once again.
For finding my smiles again. :)

Had so much fun today.
will upload photos if i am able to get them from pris soon.

but still, how long can this sheer enjoyment of each other's presence last?
Hmmm.
seriously, i have no idea. =/

well, good friends are hard to find
Real friends are even harder.
you will never know whether one is until the most crucial point
lets all hope for the best then. =)

P.S. i should start talking to you soon, although it seems that you have already forgotten about me

fire of will

2009-05-16T11:01:00.004+08:00

-Fire Of Will-

isolation,
that is my reality.
Hold on tight i must,
as i cling on for eternity.

what are friends for,
if they slap you in your face
with no mercy, no hope, no trust,
what's there left to say

And in time, i realize,
alone i must stand strong.
exchanging revenge for sweet conviction
till that day

Burn, my fire of will,
Give me courage to take on the world
Burn, my fire of will,
Give me strength for those against me.
I'm taking this vengence personal
Burn

anything that should be here, should be here

2009-05-10T11:19:00.006+08:00

"Trust is earned"
there are so much better things to do
than nosing into other people's matters
get a life

before i start on anything,

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY

may all mothers live their life to their fullest.
experiencing the best that life can bring them. =)
and mummy,
i love you. :)

tiring weekend i tell you.

TIRING

so many JCG stuff to settle.
my eyes are very close to this already. --> @_@

Gambatte Reiko,
you can do it. ^^ll

removed my extensions with the help of my bro last night.
WORST HORROR OF MY LIFE.
i never shed so much hair in my life man. =.="

MASSIVE HAIRLOSS! T.T
and they are my real hair!
dead ones of course. ^^ll

my brother wanted some credit for it.
so there you go,

ARTIST: BOON KIAT
TITLE: ONE.BIG.MESS

don't ask me why I rolled it into a ball
it is for easy disposal. LOL
look like fur ball =.=""

and i cut my hair and fringe!
omg i look so different now.
>.<

and sze zhen,
no need to be so excited to see my hair la
make me look so much more matured
^^ll

got my formal wear from G2000 on Sat too.
OMG. SUPER EXPENSIVE I TELL YOU
no wonder office people earn so much.
a quarter of their pay goes to their wear. @_@

behold the price..
A GRAND TOTAL OF $200 DOLLARS!!
*faints*

thank god my mum paid for it.
THANKS MUMMY! ^^

alright, i think i am going to stop here and head to bed soon
before i can't wake up tomorrow and decide NOT to go to school again.
^^ll

ja ne~

p.s. i don't even know my sudden thoughts of you are a result of missing you or a result of guilt...

2009-05-08T20:56:00.003+08:00

"Isolation, the best personal medicine"
i am enjoying my days of isolation.
so free..

enough,
i had enough.

no more Mr nice guy,
no more acting as if i care.

if you all have no respect or concern for me
why should i be doing all these nice crap for you all
it just isn't fair

years i tell you
YEARS
i have been tolerating
i have tried to be nice
i didn't want to do anything that was against my principles

but i have always known this fact
人善被人欺
i just didn't want to believe the level of truth that it brings

well reality just kicked me in the face and told me i was foolish
the level of stupidity i have sank into for believing nice acts with be repaid by the similar kind acts

the world is just too scheming for you to be naive,
for you to be nice.

to eat or to be eaten.
i finally learnt this lesson

fuck you people i don't care anymore.
want to say bad about me? come tell it in my face
want to whack me, come we settle this outside

the old naive carefree Brenda will never exist no more
what you see in front of you is not her
is an animal with no feelings to hurt anymore
beware of her smiles. they are not real.

trust, do you have mine?

2009-05-04T21:49:00.018+08:00

"it is so difficult to trust anyone anymore"
is there anything more i have to say?
the title says it all

Hmmm.
let me see,
it have been..

1
2
3
4

whole days since i did a proper post.:O

haha,
i know no biggie la.
but it just feels like it have been months.

i just love these people to bits.
so relaxed, so carefree when i am with them.

no scheming,
no backstabbing,
no fake faces.

just us and only us,
sharing the same interest,
the same celebrity gossips,
the same passion.

JCG PEEPS,
i would to really thank you all.
thank you all for all the wonderful time you given me.

all the hard work
all the laughter
all the stupid things we did
all the sad times we pulled through.

JCG, I WILL NEVER LET YOU CRUMBLE.
for my source of true indulgence exist there. =)

Just a quick update on the dates..

2nd may:
Watched X men's origins, wolverine.
AWESOME MOVIE I TELL YOU.
rating 4.5/5!
Urge me to re watch X men 1,2,3.
Xmen is still the best marvel movie ever! *loves* ^^

3rd may:
went for shiroro sama's birthday celebration.
my eyes were rejecting my contacts that day so i wore specs.
SO UN GLAM! D;
But we had a good time man.
Played lan for the first time.
L4D anyone?
i know super lag la. ^^ll

4th may:
Went to school and was bored out of my socks.
god damn the faci.
so cocky. =.=
went for PP briefing and
WTF, NO IDEA WHAT AND HOW TO DO AT ALL.
wish me good riddance people.
after the briefing went for JCG meeting and back home with my JCG peeps! :D

5th may:
WAS suppose to go to school.
but haha, you all guessed it.
i didn't. XP
Overslept and wasn't feeling well.
decided to stay at home
then the risk getting caught by the thermal detectors
stationed in the school's ONLY entrance.
SOOOOOO, slacked the whole day today.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!

6th may:
-unknown-

well, that's about all,
now my conscience wouldn't be bugging me to update anymore.
i guess no one was anticipating it as well. ^^

*****

ocean wide full of fake faces.
how am i to know who is real and who is not.
the fake looks real.
the real looks real too.

any detectors that can see through these people.
know what their actual motive are.
how great it is to be able to read people's thoughts.
and then again how disastrous to be able to read one.

hello reality.
is this what you really are?
if it is,
i will rather indulge myself
to the deceiving world of virtual fantasies

at least on fantasies,
you can let your guards down.
and let your real self free.

*****

i guess i have finally worked my body out.
i am even lazy to type.
everything seem like illusions now...

P.S. i have just realized, the limitations of a human being

I AM GOING TO DIE OMG

2009-05-03T22:47:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG

I AM HAVING A FEVER NOW
BODY ACHES
LETHARGIC

SWINE FLU SWINE FLU SWINE FLU

*faints*

what-ever-should-be-written-here

2009-05-01T00:25:00.008+08:00

"still water runs deep"
you can never judge a book by its cover
unless he/she is some kuku easily readable person

for just this post,
i have stoned in front of the computer for an entire hour.

epic much?

have been crazily busy past few days.
was so dead tired after school i can't even beg myself to blog.
so many things to talk about,
NADA energy at all.
D;

i am very glad to announce the SLA event to be super successful.
thank you so much for every one's help.
eda, kisa, ernie, cheng xiong, matthew,rong ting, adeline, sindy, annas, victoria, ck, yuki, senpai, sochii, yuki's sister, shawn, zee, xiao yang.
(names are of random order)
i hope you all enjoyed yourselves too.
:D

i would like to thank sochii personally for being soo nice to lend a helping hand.
you are indeed our life saver.
and you look totally shuai!
and YES, I AM FANGIRLING HER.
what so wrong about that.
don't tell me you won't if you see her.
cause that is totally a lie.
XD

alright,
the following few seconds would be spams of photos.
let pictures tell the story.
i am awfully shagged to do so.
D;

omg.
a lot of photos. :O
LOL

super super shagged.
mind is totally not processing. D;
so many things happened today.
so unexpected,so omg-i-don't-know-what-to-say

argh.
what the heck am i talking about.
totally crapping away.
i hope everything i just typed makes sense.
^^ll

NOTE: PLEASE DON'T ASSUME. i am friendly to almost everyone. =.=

i am ending here.
god damn tired.
before i get so tired that i take the toilet bowl as my pillow.
D;

oyasumi~

p.s. sometimes bitches just don't deserve the attention

SHAGGED

2009-04-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes things are just not under your control"
reiko, forget it.
stop drifting around.

i am sooo shagged now i can't explain more.

just here to inform all,
this blog is in most definate case NOT dead.
i just need time and ENERGY to update it.

totally can't think nor type anymore.
till the next time i update.

B.Y.E

p.s. why was i disappointed when i heard that from you?

food is my source of happiness

2009-04-27T00:26:00.007+08:00

"no food = cranky reiko"
i just can't seem to cheer up. FML

yeap, my tagboard is up and going again.
due to that fact that a lot of people have been complainting they want to tag but there is not tagboard.
so there you go, tag hor! LOL

went to support mike at his gig today.
he can really scream well man!
WELL DONE SCREAMO HIMBO~
LOL. just kidding. XP
and please don't bring your mafia gang come beat me up. ^^ll

a few VERY BLUR pictures of them on stage.
don't blame me!
they were headbanging all the way!!

totally cool.
the drummers are LOVESSSS. <33
i almost wanted to head bang cause of those beats.

i am sooooo going to learn drums man.
drummers are awesomely cool!
how i wish i could be up there like them. @o@

after that went to join some sg cafe peeps for dinner.
the ban mian was pretty alright.
now don't get all so cocky right there wayne! LOL

anyway, i think i am going to stop right here.
have loads of stuff to do tomorrow and i need my sleep.
bloody hell look at the time.
i am soooo not getting much sleep.

alright, enough of crap,
i shall end here with a AWESOME song.

i love you,
you love me,
we are one big family.
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you,
won't you say you love me too~

omg i am TOTALLY RANDOM. =.="

HOHO. nights. XD

p.s. i really wanted to include something in this post but i forgot what was it about. ARGH.

name changing. excitation. LOL

2009-04-26T01:47:00.003+08:00

"life sucks"
- Reiko

i am ever so confused again.

TSK

anyway this would be a very short post.
from now on, i have changed my online pen name to

REIKO れいこ

cause i really think my over cute name chika is getting into me.
it doesn't suit me after all right?
haha. ^^ll

but i would still respond to chika till everyone stops.
so please try calling me reiko?

thanks people. i love you all. :)

random night

2009-04-22T23:37:00.004+08:00

"The cold wind is blowing through, i am thinking..."
this is totally random

i am so sleepy i can literally feel my body's energy draining away.
omg, i really didn't expect school to be this tiring.
it is far much worse than work.
Imagine school then work.omg

Pathetic

i realised that i have not talked about school at all since it started.
i just have something to say.
i am not feeling comfortable with it at all.
in fact, i am really dreading it so much now.

why in particular?
i don't want to take such a huge risk by posting it all up here
and get slaughtered on the following day. ><

so i guess if you want to know why, pm me.
and if i think i can trust you with it, i will tell you. =)

anyways, there will be very little picture uploads in the upcoming posts including this one.
cause schools been busy and life have been hectic.
pardon me people. ><

argh, it is not like there are many of you following my blog
so what's the point anyway.
haha. ^^ll

ok, i am going to rapidly end this post in the most awkward way.

FUCK YOU BITCHES~

HAHAHA. i am only just kidding. XP

nights. =)

p.s. i am starting to think whether i should give it all up

fucking people screwing up my fucking life

2009-04-21T23:09:00.004+08:00

"so tired, so very tired.."
i have nothing to say but FML

i am completely exhausted.
drained dry from all the existing factors.
physically and mentally.
i can't take anymore emotional blows any more.
may it be big or small.

i broke down today.
but i can't even come up a reason for the fountain of tears.
well maybe i do know all the various reasons.
but i just can't seem to want to blame my stress on them.
after all, i am always given the choice not to care.

but i sometimes wonder,
do people even care how i feel?

i feel so fucking redundant in these people's lives.
even if i am going to fucking rot away sometime soon in my self eructed grave
i bet these people won't even care.

why?

CAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING SELFISH PEOPLE THAT'S WHY

i am starting to think that it really shouldn't be my life that is fucked up.
it should be these people's.
one of these days sometime ripe,
they are going to realise that what ever consequences they bear,
is no one's fault but theirs.

i feel so numb i can't really bother to feel anymore.
fuck school
fuck friendships
fuck relationships
fuck jcg
fuck my life
fuck THEIR lives

I ~~DON'T~~ CAN'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE
cause from this very moment onwards,
i am going to lock all my true feelings into the tiniest, most secured corner of my heart
till then, NOBODY will be able to take advantage of me anymore.

how to? when you don't know the real me..

p.s. sometimes i feel, there is no need to tell you things anymore. cause you don't fucking care

school reopens :O

2009-04-19T23:21:00.006+08:00

"banana, coconut, pineapple, euphoria"
something random from my brother.
he is indeed very fruit hungry. =.=

school reopens tomorrow. whoopeedoo NOT!
argh, i am still in holiday mood.
i can't even sleep early for goodness sake!
and i have to freaking wake up at 6am tomorrow morning.
omg, i better not be late. :O

i guess i will get to it real soon.
i mean school life is better than no life right? =/

^^ll

anyways, before i force my butt to bed,
i have to make a real big shout out to all,

CHENDOL AT PLAZA SINGAPURA'S FOOD COURT IS A MUST TRY!!

omg. i thought i was heaven when i tasted my fist mouth.
Oishii neh~ ^^

or maybe cause the weather have been crazily hot recently
that even ice tasted like elixir of life. =.=

alright, i think i better head to bed man.
if not i can't wake up!
by then,

GGFIED

nights people, may all have sweet dreams.
and oh, my fellow friends in rp,

remember to wake up. =)

p.s. things are going on well. thank you for everything. =)

worst silence are those with hidden meaning in them

2009-04-17T22:45:00.004+08:00

"invisible words beneath the silence"
empty pachments speaks most words
i am very tempted to just leave this post empty

just a little tribute to my JCG president CK,

thanks for remembering even if you are wayyyyyy in japan. =)

and bloody hell, we need you in the ig so you better not leave ok!
you are very important.
proud right. *eyebrowns*

and yes, i spent the whole entire day slacking off at home as mentioned.
call me lazy what so ever ba.
i want to laze all i can before school reopens.

till then, it would be

H.E.L.L

sigh, guess that is school life. =/

******

i was not planning to post anything sendimental nor emotional tonight.
well i guess i really can't ignore the fact.

i am feeling damn fucking bad now.
i can't just take your words as sweeping statements.
it is affecting me too much.

and wtf, the worst thing is that everything seems helpless.
there is absolutely NOTHING i can do.
well except giving you what you deserve.

shall i do just that then?
but then, i will be unfair to someone else in turn.

FUCK IT LA. LIFE IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR

and pardon my coarse language. i am desperate for vention.

******

sigh. i guess there is really nothing i can do about it already.
i would just have to leave it as if i know nothing.

but if you would ever accept my sincere apologises,

i'm sorry.

ps. fuck my life and its dramas.

girls day out! :D

2009-04-16T23:45:00.010+08:00

"i wish time would stop for me"
now THAT is ridiculous brenda.

i just love girls day out. :D

missed FOP today cause i was down with high fever this morning.
awwwww can't get to see those new juniors. D:

well anyways i was lucky that my fever went as fast as it came.
cause i was out with my girls in the afternoon!
omg, i love you girls man.

we went around esplanade and had a hell of a time there man!
the camera snapped away and the whole entire roof terrace is filled with our laughter.
man, i got to say this again, i LOOOOOOOVE you girls man. XD

the FAMOUS kisa LOL =P

eda eda eda! XD

omg. where am i looking man? =.=

and i swear i never photoshopped my eyes bigger!
i don't know why it looks soooo big in those pictures. =.="""
must be the lighting! haha. ^^ll

alright, i know i cheated, these aren't pictures from the terrace.
there are some cam whore pics in the toilet. ^^ll

that's cause the other pictures are all with my girls and they have not sent it to me yet! ><
so i guess i can only upload it next time. *shrugs*
XP

and then we proceed for food and arcade!
weird right. no shopping involved at all.

haha in your face people who always thinks girls outing involves shopping.
MUHAHAHAHA.
please don't beat me up. XP

and we went to visit crystal senpai!
omg, she is still as adorable as ever. ^^
and that kind of sums up my day. :)

tomorrow a brand new day.
perfect day to..

..
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..
..
..
..
..

SLACK. MUHAHAHA. XP

*******

you are getting into me.
you know it, i know it.
i am not going to lie

i am not dumb, i get what you mean.
but i am often speechless at what ever you express.

what can i do? vanish and give you what you deserve?
i really don't know.

i have nothing against you.
if it is possible, i would like to be friends with you.
but i guess it is quite impossible.

you have the rights to be angry.
afterall, love is selfish.
but i still hope, that we could get along.

i guess that is all i have to say...

******

signing off with lots of smooches
sounding damn bimbotic here

good night. =)

p.s. sotongs.haha..

freedom's key

2009-04-15T23:09:00.004+08:00

"i never thought i felt this way"

S.H.A.G.G.E.D

gosh, i can't even describe it man. =.=
i have not felt so tired for a record breaking long time already.

i want to sleep.

anyways, i understood and realized a lot of things during self reflection today.
it is not necessarily to make self comparison against you.

cause under all that comparison is just that sleek layer of our materialistic selves.
some what like a mere thrill of being better than each other.

does it really matter anyway? everyone is unique in our way.
we have our own audience, we have our own crowd.
all that's necessary is being yourself.

and that is the best you are able to offer.
the most beautiful side that people will notice.
may it be now or later.

brenda is tired. but a happy girl today.
cause i learnt an important fact about myself.

i have given freedom the key to my heart. =)

p.s. i am feeling what i am feeling and there will be no more doubts in that..

crap. i suck at giving titles.

2009-04-14T23:11:00.006+08:00

"things aren't they used to be"
but i like it. :)

thinking of you - Katy perry

reminds me of why i was so obsessed with her at some period of time.
man look at this girl here. what's there not to like?

this particular song here she has. omg, got my heart with it.
beautiful lyrics, beautiful vocals, beautiful face, beautiful song.

oh Katy perry, if you ever have the chance to read this,
GOD BLESS YOU. YOU ARE A GENIUS.
and i simply adore you. =)

that reminds me, i have to wake up at 6 am tomorrow cause i need to be in school by 8.30.
GOD DAMN IT.
i have no idea how am i going to make it man. =.=

god bless me

now i am teeny wheeny regretful of going to rp.
cause it is SO FCUKING FAR AWAY. *#&$#(*&$
so much time wasted on travelling. TwT

anyways,

halo - beyonce

another master piece beyonce.

SHE IS STILL AS HOT AS EVER.
just look at her bum!
no wonder she spent so much insurance on it. =.=

ZOMG.LOOK AT THE TIME. i am SOOOOO not able to wake up tomorrow man.
and to think that i have to do morning calls. =.=

i think i better drag my butt to bed then.

good night and good day people. :)

music, listen well...

a little spoiler for my next post.

anticipation would be left for you to pick up.
or not.

till then~ :D

crappy is nyappy. CRAP

2009-04-13T20:25:00.009+08:00

"somethings need not be said"
the answer lies within us

"I HATE YOU"

HAHA. just kidding. XP

i feel happy today. =)

pretty mundane but exciting day it is. contradicting i know.
haha. =/
went to school for a presentation, went grocery shopping with eda and back.
pretty lifeless eh?

but not shopping with eda! omg. she is just adorable.
and we both have the same needs! you
know what i am talking about right eda? *eyebrowns*

so we went around getting our needed items and i ended up buying all these..

zomg. you all should pretty much have some idea how my spending habits are like now right. ^^ll.
but the main point isn't this. it is that big rectangular box in the middle.

the one that has two very different looking guys in the cover and spells, "DETROIT METAL CITY"

@o@!! i can listen to amai amai and kill everybody everyday if i want to!! *o*

haha. alright that is a little too over dramatic. =.=
basically i bought this for my brother cause he is not officially 16 yet and was refused at the counter.

awwwww.

so now he can enjoy it at the comforts of home!
bk, you should really love me to bits man. LOL. just kidding. XD

oh oh oh! before i forget! take a look at this!

JANG JANG JANG JANG.
behold the naoya look alike!! :O

i promised myself to take it down the next time i saw it on the train windows and there it is! LOL. zomg. someone ask naoya come and see.
HAHA. XP

alright, i am tired already. there are some more photos i want to post up.
but i guess you all have to wait for the next post.

cause

my

bed is

CALLING

ME!

enough said,

wishing all good days ahead, ja ne~ =)

my mind went blank when i was trying to think of a title

2009-04-11T23:36:00.007+08:00

"i only have three words for you. i dislike you."

what a day. i should have just stayed at home.

sigh

there is nothing much to say about it too. but so much it had impacted me.

WHY THE FUCK WERE YOU WITH US TODAY?

i guess i was really not able to cover up my unhappiness. but i tried. really tried. perhaps it is cause you are really making me very uncomfortable. and yes, it is fear that i feel.

but despite all that, i am happy to meet up with you all. reminiscing all the good old time we had together.

*hugs* ^^

i am not going to hide that i am losing my blogging touch. i guess it is quite obvious already. but i just can't bear to let myself to blog about my daily life.
i don't know why. i am an oddball afterall. :D

"life's all but a complicated piece of art. sometimes you see things sometimes you don't"

haha. right, that is my aspect of life. you make it wonderful, you're happy. you ruin it, affects you too.

=/

i guess every one's life is different. sometimes we might cross paths and realise, "hey, we are friends". and after that, we are back to square one.

withstanding relationships depends not only on one's self, but on the opposite party too. to paint a picture together is a difficult process. however the ending result is often sometime out of our expectations.

RANDOM: i totally miss blogging in Chinese.

and god damn it. i just realized both my lappies doesn't support Chinese typings.

ARGGH

REMINDER TO SELF: get Chinese typing up and working as soon as possible. =V=

and so, to end of this really random and ~~nonsensical~~ blog post,

power puff girls straws! ^o^ pardon me for getting the arrangement wrong. the soyabean milk was too much to resist. ^^ll

nights to all angels. that includes you. =)

p.s. i think i am growing closer to you..

true friends?

2009-04-09T22:24:00.005+08:00

这是万能阿伯，有事就说，没事就退朝=x says:
*So i shall be tht true fren lor
*What's so hard ?
*at least i dun hi and bye =/

CHIKA E26A =.= says:
*LOL!!
*well you better not if not i will kick your ass hard!

unleash the violence within~ LOL

well, i am most of the time really bored nowadays. looking forward to school reopen? nahda.

anticipating going to work? nope not at all.

excited to be able to slack my whole day? omg. no. shoot me in the head

longing to out with friends? lazzzzzyyyyyyyy

haha. look at how fcuked up i am? i really need to get a life. =)

had a long good chat with a person who knows. it has been a loooooooong looooooooong time since i had such an in depth and influential chat with someone. it really feels good. =)

well, i really hope you will keep your promise to never sink into a "hi" "bye" friend. i trust you. i think you are a nice person. ~~aside from all the weird theories that always made sense. =X~~

what can i say? close friends are hard to find. true ones are even harder. close friends turn on each others too. true friends don't. =/

enough said and enough done. i guess it still narrows down to individuals.

i am not going to drag on. i am tired and i need sleep. will be off to Malaysia for the whole day tomorrow so don't bother contacting me. drop me a text and i will reply as soon as i get back. =)

adios my dear skunkers. and once again i am kidding. CIAOS~ =)

P.S. i need a life. i think you need one too.

2009-04-07T22:34:00.003+08:00

omg. i am not myself today.

what have i just done man. shit. fcuk.

i am losing control of myself. someone just shoot me.

i am losing my mind.

peace

2009-04-07T01:32:00.002+08:00

CHIKA E26A =.= says:
*DON'T TELL ME YOU ARE LEAVING JCG

.:woOf:. says:
*lol no

CHIKA E26A =.= says:
*I WILL KICK YOUR ASS IF YOU ARE

i guess that shows how violent i can get. :)

well, i guess many people are expecting answers from me. i am also guessing that there are truck loads of "whys!?" waiting right at my door step now.

SIGH

surprisingly, as i am jotting this piece of my memory down at this moment, i feel peace.

something i have not felt for many months already.

it is weird to know that peace is so sustainable even when there is so much chaos bombarding you from all different directions.

i guess this is what you call inner peace. one step towards self actualization. :)

i know you all want to know what happened. you all want to know what caused this sudden change. but to tell all a truth, i have no idea myself at all.

hmm. maybe i do know after all. but i have always keep it safe in denial. i guess life is all but a big fat lie.

SIGH

i am going to put all these aside for now and concentrate on grabbing hold of this long desired inner peace. i don't want to think about things so much anymore. you are right kisa, there is nothing i can do after all.

just hoping for the best..

and the day of realisation.

"someday the light will come and shine the path you should be taking. it is not the matter of how, it is the matter of when"
-brenda

2009-04-06T13:41:00.006+08:00

i am in a dilemma now.

to continue with it and hope for something to happen,

or to end it fast.

i am trying my best to feel. hoping that i can get butterflies in my stomach. but i have to be really honest, i felt none yesterday.

i am really sorry.

this is indeed the first time i am having all these doubts. there is just no feel.

i like you, you are really nice. really caring. really cute.but it just stops there. there is nothing more than that.

i am trying to find something that is more then like. i promise i will try. but i feel that it is very unfair to you. to make you wait for a unpredictable answer.

i feel damn guilty right now.

people are going to hate me for sure if i ever have the courage to post this up. but i believe you have the rights to know. i don't want to lie to you.

maybe we need more time? i really don't know.

you have every right to hate me now. i beg you to be angry with me. i feel that i have led you down. there is nothing that can express my guilt right now. i feel horrible. i feel like a bitch.

i guess i really need more time. i need to sort my feelings out. you have every right to leave. i won't blame you for i am such a bitch to do this to you.

i just need sometime alone.

once again, i am really sorry. hurts my every soul while typing all these things down. i really hope you will understand.

sorry.

13 going on 30..when is it my turn?

2009-04-04T14:07:00.004+08:00

i just finished watch my 93193759294 times of "13 going on 30" and i still love it SOOOO much.

i am jealous. yeah, real jealous of jeanna rink(Jennifer Garner).

JUST LOOK AT HER!!

she is attractive, appealing and has big boobs! D<

ok, i know it sounds super stupid to be jealous of a made up character. BUT SHE IS SO ENVIOUS-ABLE(self made word. don't bother looking for it in the dictionary)!!

i mean, she is in love with this guy, how not to be envious?

Matt Flamhaff(Mark Ruffalo)

ok fine, i grant you that he is not the best looking guy ever. but his voice just melts me. X3 and he has italian blood!

and he is just SOOO ADORABLE in the show!

awwwwww. :3

and and and, she is like has a totally lovable charater in the show!

and she gets to do sleepovers!! *jealous* TwT

i always wanted to have sleepovers with my girlfriends when i was young. but i was brutally deprived of it. so i get REALLY jealous when others can do sleepovers with their girlfriends. D<

and best of all, they get to live happily ever after!

so sweet man....^^

to those who have watched this before, i guess you all know what i am talking about.

and to those who have not watched it before. it is a must watch.

SO GO WATCH IT! i am not going to be a spoiler. :)

but i guarentee sweetness oozing from the very start of the show. LOL

well, i hope you all can see from all these random stuff i post on top are signs that chika is getting bored.

entertain me anyone?

HOHOHO.

ciaosu~ ^^

random facts? or not.

2009-04-03T15:14:00.005+08:00

ok, i am back

don't look at me this way, i am bored ok!

10 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT BRENDA

wanna hear about it? HEE HEE

FACT 1: I don't worship sweet things.

yeah, i do eat them but a house made of candy would never ever be in my wish list. overwhelming sugar makes me nuts so no chocolates for valentines! *but i don't mind ice cream* HO HO!

FACT 2: I am obsessed with and simply ADOOOORRREEE furry animals. *faints*

ZOMG. There are like the most LOVABLE things ever living on earth la! Soft toys that are furry are loves too. –nyuuu- ^^

FACT 3: I can be very shy when I first meet people. But after a while I would be ok le. ^^ll

AND I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE DON’T BELIEVE ME IN THIS. D<

FACT 4: I cannot live without music.

Oh my god. I can die if I am caught without my mp3 man. I will swear at myself till I feel guilty. LOL. =.=”

FACT 5: I don’t like long showers.

Ok ok, I can feel deadly stares at me now. But yes, I DON’T LIKE LONG SHOWERS. But doesn’t mean I shower. I shower at least twice daily ok!! >.<

FACT 6: I like watching tv dramas

Well that explains all my advices that make sense even without concrete experience. Oh don’t thank me. Thank those all so mighty script writers. :)

FACT 7: I don’t think I really have high EQ.

Hmm. I distinctively remembering some people telling me I have an acutely low EQ. well, I went to take LOADS online tests and my EQ have always high. Hmmm. confusing eh? Well who am I to judge? LOL

FACT 8: I have a low percentage of 0% for my immune system according to kisa

Well. Maybe not THAT bad. A few percent perhaps? Haha. ^^ll

FACT 9: I am like 85% of the time random.

Yeap. I am super random and I guess most of you guys know? LOL it is my weird attempt to try to socialize with other beings. Randoming seems to work every time. LOL

FACT 10: I don’t like coming up with 10 random facts of myself.

GOSH. FINALLY I AM AT MY 10th. @_@!! I CANNOT believe I took around 5 WHOLE MONTHS to finish this bloody post. Guess coming up with 10 random facts about yourself isn’t an easy task after all. I realize I would start cracking my brain for stuff I wish to know about myself.

And yeah I know, that is VERY disturbing. LOL

Anyways, i am going to end this post really soon cause the antibiotics are really draining me hell dry man.

I am jelly like from head to toe and really sucks.

GOD DAMN YOU ANTIBIOTICS. VERY EFFECTIVE. BUT VERY DRAINING. *&#@$&

Oh my god. I am really out of my mind.

Till the next post,

Enjoy your days goofballs! Just kidding. XD

P.S. I finally got haloscan working. Took me like 94837284856248 hours to have it installed. Fcuking irritating I tell you. =.= sooooo, don’t let my efforts go to waste? Haha. Use my comment system pl0x. cause replying in tagboards are really kinda getting a little frustrating. THANKS A LOT! XD

tag replies

2009-04-03T12:11:00.001+08:00

haha people, don't be so happy to see that i updated. i am just replying tags here cause i can't bloody get haloscan working.

and replying tags on cbox is so much of a hassle. squeezing only limited words in to one tag.

IRRITATING. LOL

anyways,

AIIKIKI : where got nice man? anyhow chapalang do one. haha. ^^ll AND YEAH, SOCHII CUTE RIGGGGHHHHTTTT~ LOL! i think she doesn't know her pic is here yet. if not, JANG JANG JANG JANG. i also don't know what will happen. LOL! ><

SHINN : haha. your this style --> ~!~!. you always have all these after you shout out something in cyber world. LOL! and i don't there is a need to change lungs la. haha. just need to heal mine. :)

KISA : haha. don't know. just infected loh. then doctor say i coughed too much, i hurt my muscles there too therefore explains the chest pains. haha. suspected to be mild pneumonia. he gave me antibiotics le. but if it doesn't get any better, i would need to go for X rays and maybe pay a visit to the doctors and nurses in the hospital. LOL ^^ll

YUKI : LOL! you and kisa ahhhh. tsk tsk tsk. LOL!!

famous or infamous?

2009-04-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

ho ho ho. i am back. and i really doubt anyone cares.

even kisa says that my blog is a blog that has nothing to comment on.

well i guess i shouldn't really care? cause this is a personal online dairy that i can write what ever i want and shouldn't be even slightly bothered that no one is visiting. blah blah blah

BULLSHIT.

i mean come on, who doesn't want many hits in their blog counter? if not explain the existence of statecounters.

who doesn't want to know how much people are actually bothered enough to read their blogs? if not why all the emo posts.

who wouldn't want to be a little celebrity in their own cyber world space? if not why start a blog in the first place?

haha. i may be a little materialistic and bimbotic right now but i guess what ever i pointed out are facts.

hmmmm.

well whatever~ i mean i can't force people to read something that bores them out of their socks right. LOL.

hell right man. haha

ok, so i FINALLY went to the doctors and i am glad i made that decision.

my lung are infected. =.=""

yeap, that's right. you read it, it is infected. and i have no bloody idea what happened. LOL. =/

i guess i really need to get my health back. i can already feel its side effects and it freaking sucks

ZZZZZZZZZZZZ

ok, i am going to stop here.

was meant to be a quick post in the first place. haha.

will update more soon! :D

bye.

the feeling of home

2009-03-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

i spent a whole day slacking. WHOO PEE~

it has been so long since i had anytime being cooped up at home. feels like being grounded.

but i like it. JAHAHAHAHA. ._."

and now as i am typing all these, i am happily resting my butt in that familiar bedroom at my grandmother's.

oh how i miss this place. the scene, the smell, the TV blasting at its max downstairs and my grandma naggy at top speed FTW.

ahhh, feels so much at home.

not that i hate my own family and my own home. but come on, you would miss the place you are brought up from after leaving it for a period of time right?

oh how i miss the fact that everything here isn't in English.

a little less of logic, a lot more of superstition. how wonderful :D

had to the day to myself to reflect too. got emo for a while ( oh hell right you are kesh, today is indeed a PERFECT day to emo) and that i was back to where i was again. staring at the walls and ceilings with no thoughts in my head at all. haha.

how marvellous. XP

and let me introduce you to the newest addition to chika's life..

NEKI NEKI~! zomg. look how cute he is!! -nyuuuuu- X3

*sense killing aura from one corner*

**ON MAKE END**

LOL. awwwww. they look so cute together right.. :3

great. i took an hour plus just to finish the whole thing.

talk about slowness. =.=""

oh well, hope they will love each other like hell much. JAHAHAHA.

ok i'm off, ja ne~.

:)

bored

2009-03-29T17:50:00.001+08:00

ok, i am like officially bored at home.

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i have no motivation to blog at all. LOL maybe cause it is just such a PERFECT day to emo.

LOL. what crap. haha

was reading the AAL's blog about their antism (if there is a word like this) of ah lians. somehow or another, it scares me into getting into a relationship.

i know. WTF IS THE RELATION?

haha. i also don't know. ^^ll just looking at those ah lian and ah beng couples together, just gets me really sick.

their sweetness and intense desire for each other is damn disturbing.

and then i wonder, what happens if i turn into them if i am attached? ZOMG. NIGHTMARES.

haha. no wonder people always say i think too much. very true indeed eh? spend stupid time pondering over stuff like that. what an idiot. LOL

anyways, went for the kurobara event yesterday. sadly, NO PICTURES. pretty small event. wasn't really in the mood of taking pictures. pardon me *coughs* ^^ll

so many familiar faces man. atmosphere was awkward too. Just can't seem to stay excited and anticipated for the event. was thinking of leaving right after arriving.

brenda, you are such an oddball. LOL

and and and!!

WE FINALLY MANAGED TO WATCH DMC!!zomg, after three freaking weeks. =.=

funny. must watch. =) ok, that isn't very convincing but you know.. LOL ^^ll

heehee.

OH OH OH! before i forget, i got a candid shot of lovable sochii!! but i was so so lazy to post it up on the day i took it.

beholddddddddddd

SOCHII IN A CUP~!! LOL.CUTENESS.

bet you thought i was just taking my drink right sochii. *eyebrowns eyebrowns* JAHAHAHAHA. XP

hope she doesnt kills me for this. ^^ll

and i am getting bored typing all these down already.

so to end everything off, i shall say bye to all,

ja ne~ hoo hum. LOL

somethings need not be said

2009-03-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

haha. i was bored at work. ^^ll

i have decided. although my health is not looking too good now, but i still have loads of people who loves me and cares for me. right?

so why gloom about it? maybe staying happy might just be the best remedy for my situation.=)

i am still working on my 10 random facts about brenda.

i know i know, i have been working on it since November last year. =.= but awww come on, it is worth the wait i guess?

or not. haha

anyways tomorrow is the kuro bara event. i am going obvious much? LOL

hmmm wonder what will happen man. sigh.

AND AND AND I FORGOT TO MENTION!

i had purple and blonde extensions (as you can see from the picture above)! and it is chio one loh!! stanley don't jealous. *eyebrowns*

the effect can't really be seen on pictures. but it is rocking real hard in real life.

CHIO CHIO CHIO!

and even if it IS fake (yes kisa, this is for you. haha) i am still loving it hell much.

i mean come on, what else isn't fake nowadays? so quit harping on my extensions.

i like it and thats finally. haha

zomg, i sound DAMMMMMMNNNN bitchy right now. =O LOL

alright i am heading to bed.

nights :D

P.S. i just had the sudden urge to do this. thanks for the bracelet. appreciate it a lot. was very sweet of you. :)

random

2009-03-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

ok, my blogskin is FINALLY done.

nothing fantastic. oh well. LOL

been sick the whole entire day. was not able to eat much too.

sad case eh?

ok i am going to stop here. don't want to blabber on with nonsense that you and I know we won't want to read.

haha. till then,

sayonara. ^^

i can't control anything now

2009-03-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

my future seems bleak.

i am feeling intense fear now.

yes. F.E.A.R

my health is giving me major problems again. i hope this time i am able to tide through again.

i am too young to leave. there are so many things yet to be done. i don't want to just leave without accomplishing anything.

i am very very tired.

累

i want to quit everything. i am sick of tired of my jobs. i just want to stay at home and really slack.

i guess i would be quitting out on allan ba. i really don't think i can handle it anymore.

with health like this, is it even possible to pull through?

i don't know man.

in deep confusion and frustration now.

i want to rest.

i need to rest.

new skin =)

2009-03-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

yo yo people yo.

long time no blog yo.

creating new blog skin yo yo.

so won't be blogging much yo.

take a sneak preview yo yo,

still construction yo.

alright. enough with the yos. damn irritating. LOL

yeap, my blog skin i am using now is some one elses. hmmm. i am just very afraid that one of these days the blog mistress suddenly decides to close down this blogskin.

then i will be blogskinless.

and i would have to go through the entire hassle to look for another one and that isn't at all good for a lazy person like me yo.

so i decided to make one on my own. saves all the hassle in the future. haha

btw, coralites that are reading this current sentence (yeap, thats right. YOU), would you all just squeeze out that tinee whinee tad bit of time to go to zul's blog,

http://muhdzulfadli.blogspot.com/

to finish the poll he has put up there. haha.

thank you so so much!

love you guys.

crap i sound bimbotic. LOL

gosh. amy winehouse wannabe :O

2009-03-21T10:34:00.000+08:00

zomg. that is definitely one hell of a messy look on me man. i look drunk. :O

i sure look like amy whinehouse god forbidden man. =.="

yesterday was my first and also my last time i am going to don on so much make up. man i feel so fake with them on.

but i at least i attempted to smile in the pic. ^^ll

although making it look even more wrong as a whole package. =.="""""

the look is wrong, the feel is wrong, the quality is wrong.

now people, THAT is what i called photo disaster. LOL

well putting that aside, i am really finding it a hassle to blog every time. but then again, if i don't update, i feel dreadful.

haha. me and my screwed up choices. haha. i am not surfing the web so much for truck loads of rubbish like i used to. so there isn't much of interesting things i can save you all the trouble of finding by sharing it here.

and oh yeah, i need to re tune my vicious cycle too. sleeping at 2 and waking up at 11 everyday. uh uh, not a perfect work plan for me. haha.

how am i suppose to keep healthy in this way? i know la. 2 might still very early for you all. but it isn't prime for me yo.

so much for having years of resolutions regarding sleeping early. does the growth of age equates to sleeper later into the night? LOL!

ok, i am lost for words now. the words from my mind just jammed like a photocopy machine jam.

well never mind. till the next post,

good bye =)

p.s. will skies of mine ever be so bright?

love that never expects returns

2009-03-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

god knows how long it was since we took a picture like this.

i just got one thing to say.

i love you all.

:)

it doesnt pay to be nice ever

2009-03-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

well life haven't been going very well for me i guess.

so blogging have slipped right to one of the last things i ever wanted to do. Nothing much to blog about too.

you all wouldn't want to read emo post one after another right? haha

i am now freaking late for work and i am just not moving my ass. actually, i don't even know should i even be going at this time. i screwed up my schedule and now i have no idea where i should go or what should i do next.

irritated.

anyways, i was looking through some old photos last night when i saw this.

look at how mummy is smiling so sweetly into the camera. she was genuinely happy.

i seldom see that on her face now. and i can't do anything about it too. and that really frustrates me.

just looking at this picture pricks my heart. i am sorry mummy.

i know i am not living up to her expectations. i can't even deal with raging issues racing my way now. i just want to roll up somewhere and die.

at least i wouldn't need to worry no more.

at least some people would be happier if i didn't exist in this world at all.

the price to pay for never being really well liked in your entire 17 years of life. pretty pathetic isn't it? haha.

well,maybe you are really right kesh. do friends ever last that long anyway? how many can in fact really walk down this dreadful lifetime of yours?

very very little. in fact, even if you are ever going to be able to find one, you should be smirking your mouth rotten cause you are one hell of a lucky ass.

it doesn't pay to be so nice to everyone i realise. it is human nature. you would start to take advantage even sub consciously once habits are formed. you will start to rely, start to think obligations are always in your way.

sucks to be me you know? i know i often say that. but really, it just sucks to be me.

i am destined a lonely life. it was already predicted before i was born.

fuck all those fake smokescreens that led me to thinking otherwise. life have never been fair.

i guess i am not need here. never needed in fact.

so should i go throw myself off some random building i see?

hmmmm definately a very tempting alternative solution.

i can talk to you no more

2009-03-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

woah. look at how long ago i last posted. no wonder nobody misses me.

LOL

pretty boring life i have. or maybe not? i just can't find the mood to blog.

more like blogged half way and got tired of it. haha. =/

everything seems boring to me now. while maybe cause i am under a lot of stress.

hey wait, that does contradicts right? haha. what am i thinking of man. well that figures, i am always not in my right mind when blogging.

everything just comes pouring out like random river flows.

argh forget about those wordy wordy passages of words.

time for some pictures?

gosh i thought i heard a low cheer in the background. LOL

ok, something i whipped up that day for lunch.

now i can't see why people complaint so much about cup noodles. I mean, just add a little something to it then it will be just as nice as any noodle store outside.

maybe not as much nutritional value but heck! it is nice ok!

well i would pass the idea of it if i am a huge lazy bum. cause i have to admit, it does takes a tad bit more effort to make maggie taste nicer.

but it is worth every sweat i tell you. brings maggie to a whole new level. LOL

a few more random pictures,

zomg. the beauty of the ferries wheel. @o@!!

and how do i explain this? LOL

my supervisor childishly playing with the fire gun (i don't know what is it called) in mr curry's kitchen.

i secretly believe she wanted to burn the whole place down but she denied. LOL!

and last but not least,

my unfinished blog banner.

i am like stuck in this half done inspiration for weeks. damn my creativity cells. i really must get them working soon man. just looking at this banner makes me frustrated for not finishing it.

***

ok i guess that is about it. i can blog no more. sick and tired of somethings already. can't be bothered about anything else.

bye.

a peep to my life

2009-03-11T10:43:00.000+08:00

morning my fellow peeps.

Firstly, i would like to apologise sincerely for the burst of emotions in my previous post. Not very lady like i know. >.<

I guess i just needed a platform to vent anger and my dear blog here was the perfect listening ear. haha. ^^ll

Anyways, What a wonderful day it is to slack today man. I am so freaking envious of people who are able to do so la.

ARGH.

I am due at work at 12 and i am still not moving my ass to get myself ready. I guess the flu bug still lingers around me.

I feel sick. ZZZ

CK sent me some photos he took in Japan last night. AND IT IS CHIO ONE LOH.

maybe not much about my miserable camera's capabilities that i lent him.

Man i really didn't know he had pretty good photography skills at all. LOL

AND ZOMG, JAPAN OK. J.A.P.A.N

EJIDJLKJDASA *goes bonkers* ^^ll

I shall post one of them here to let you all take a look. i hope ck doesn't mind. >.< here goes,

ok, it does not really show Japan much but i think this photo is stunning ok!

I love the way the focus was one the tree behind instead of the flower. Kind of made me realised something philosophical.

"The blooming flower dances around in peoples attention, but in time, the tree behind that stands as the support background will make shine itself as well"

zomg. ok, my mind is not exactly wired in the sensible matter today i guess.

so till the next post, adios! :D

fucked up life

2009-03-10T15:27:00.000+08:00

*ALERT. HIGHLY OFFENSIVE LANGUAGE. READ AT OWN RISK

FUCK.

and i mean seriously, F.U.C.K

everything is going topsy turvy. i dont know who to turn to and i don't know who to trust no more.

Everywhere feels like a battle field now. any moment of misjudgement may just send you straight to Hell's gate, with no hope of returning.

NBCBBFCMN

i don't even know why have i landed myself into this whole pile of shit. I don't even know what is the reason you all issued me the death certificate. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I DIED.

WTF

My mind is a forest full of cobwebs now. Fuck all these issues. i just need an auto focus in life.

indeed life gets more spastic with every year you go. Everywhere you turn you see mannequin faces smiling back at you.

All the same with hidden motives and internal thoughts.

"Oh my god, you so sweet." YEAH RIGHT.

THIS is what you all are really thinking, "tsk, what a spastic girl. so fake. want attention only"

DENY MUCH?

damn am i getting so freaking tired of facing all these. Never have i been able to be at peace since the miserable young age of 14.

4 YEARS ONLY. 4 YEARS and i got myself into so much fucking shit.

HOW ABLE THE OTHER DON'T KNOW HOW MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE!?

great, i really think i have an effing low percentage for my EQ.

so much for overcoming secondary school days and all that shit.

i am back to my original point of with "retard" as my middle name.

the revival

2009-03-09T20:07:00.000+08:00

ok, hello people.

i have like FINALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY changed back to blogger.

feels so much like home man. -nyuuuuuuuu- o(^o^)o

i have to be like uber honest now,

i have lost my blogging interest like for god knows how long already.

kind of feel lost to be back here racking my brains on what to post.

awww this just sucks,

soooooo what should i post about? outing with the SG cafe people? or Kesh's birthday? Or just on any random stuff that i happen to have in my mind?

argh, i just can't make up my mind man. eeyer.

HEY! why not you all tell me what should be posting about then? i guess it is much more pratical right? reading something that wouln't bore you all out? haha

great, now this whole entire post sounds so commercialised. (=_=)

well, at least i tried. =/

so tell me what you all want on my tagboard right over there ok! ====>

and i will do as you all please. XD

but before i go,

-credits to aiikiki- ^^

Y4 UNITE~! well, jolyn was not able to make it so we found stanly to take over her for awhile.

and obviously he didn't do a very good job. LOL

anyways, till then, bye! ^^

**update

I was planning to create my own blog skin. but i guess lady inspiration is not on my side. :( I got stuck half way through and finally closed it due to frustration.

hmmmm =/

so i would be using this for now. but i guess this is also uber nice. DOUBLE CREDITS TO THE CREATOR~! XD

many things happened at night. i guess it is best not to talk about it ba.

but the bottom line is, we are very sorry. i am very sorry.

i am in a intense confused stage now. i guess time is always the factor when these things happens.

i hope everything is alright ba.

P.S. i think i am really no good at anything for sure